APATHY (AN EMOTIONAL JOURNEY)

LACK OF INTEREST IN ALL THAT THERE IS
NO ENERGY TO SHOW OF LIKE A DAY OLD SODA THAT HAS LOST ALL ITS FIZZ
DROOPINESS SHOWING IN THE EYES
MISTAKEN FOR BOREDOM WHICH REALLY IS JUST MORE OF A DISGUISE
A LETHARGIC LIFE FILLED OF NO HOPE
COPING ONLY WITH CHEMICAL SUBSTANCES THAT WE CALL DOPE
SMOKING IT UP FALSIFYING THAT EVERYTHING IS GREAT
KNOWING FULL WELL THAT IN OUR MINDS WE ALL THINK IT’S TOO LATE!
OUR INDIFFERENCE TOWARDS WHAT IS THERE ONLY GOES TO THE POINT OF GETTING NOWHERE
THE LANGUOR OF THIS BODY IS UNBEARABLE
BUT YET WE COPE SIMPLY TO BE SUSTAINABLE
WHICH MERELY STATES THAT OUR WEARINESS CONTINUES ON
JUST A DREAM THAT ONE DAY IT ALL WILL BE GONE
LACK OF WILLPOWER TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT
EVEN STILL MY MOTIVATION IS ONLY TO STARE AND SIT
NO CHOICE OR CONTROL LOST IN MYSTERY
BUT MOST OF ALL PRESENTLY LIVING IN HISTORY
FUTURE IS TOO FAR TO SEE THE PRESENT IS TOO CLOSE TO BE
BUT THE PAST FEELS SAFE TO HIDE IN
SO THE MIND GOES THERE TO ABIDE
NOT REALIZING THE BODY IS STILL COPING WITH NO RESPONSIBILITY AT ALL
SO IT CREATES PROBLEMS AND ACCIDENTS JUST WAITING FOR THAT GREAT FALL!
STOMACHING AND HOLDING IN THE PAIN SUBSIDING IT WITH A ZOMBIE LIKE DISDAIN.
GIVING AN APATHETIC SMILE NOT INTERESTED IN MUCH DOING SO BUT ONLY ONCE IN A WHILE
THIS APATHY FEELS SO HOPELESS LIKE NOTHING IS WORTH IT FEELING ALL TOO USELESS
DOOMED TO FAILURE THE BLEAKNESS OF MY EXISTENCE
NOT INTERESTED AT ALL IN BEING PERSISTENT.
DAYS AND YEARS THEY ALL GO BY
HOWEVER DEEP DOWN ALL I WANT TO DO IS SILENTLY CRY!