Laughter is a hidden device of what truly is occurring deep within
Secreting all inadequacies from my own view as well as from others
Every waking moment having to make sure I breathe in
Praying that I won’t be rejected by my sisters and brothers.
Confusion is an overwhelming amount of randomness
Tears’ swelling up until it overflows so suddenly
Holding onto a memory of days with no worries or stress
Awakened only to a life of lost and calamity
My gullet feeling scratchy and loosing my speech
Strenuous existence to keep it all together
Desire to tear out the virus within that I cannot reach
Only coping and hoping that somehow it will get better!
Foolish enough to believe that the veracity of my being
Will bring it all together to an understanding of what I’m truly made of
Only to find a lack of conviction on my part to be deemed necessary
Lost in translation of a life without seeming to find someone to love.
Self proclamation of insanity only to find out it is hereditary
Feeling like I’m bouncing about being pushed and shoved
The end really is never ending just continuous new beginnings!!!
This madness of repeated cycles that I’m supposed to be trapped in
Definitely succeeded in getting me all worked up into a state of maddening!!!
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