SELF-ABASEMENT ("AN EMOTIONAL JOURNEY")

HOW SWEETLY PAINFUL IT IS TO TORCHER ONESELF AND YET CRAVING FOR SOMEONE TO COME AND HELP
TO MAKE THE BODY FEEL TO THE DEGREE THAT IT’S ALIVE WHAT INSANITY IS THIS THAT MAKES ONES PAIN DRIVE
BY HITTING OR HURTING IN ORDER TO FEEL DOING THIS ONLY BECAUSE YOU WANT TO KNOW YOU’RE REAL
CUTTING YOUR WRIST SCRATCHING YOURSELF TORMENTING PAIN HIDING THE BRUISES AND CONCEALING THE STAIN
THE MUSKY SMELL OF SKIN BURNING AS THE CIGARETTE BUTT CONTINUES ON FUMING
AT FIRST NO FEELING UNTIL IT GETS IN DEEPER THEN THE FALSE SENSE OF IT HURTING EVER SO SWEETER
TO GET SO LOW OF SUCCUMBING WITH AN IDEA THAT ONE FEELS THEREFORE IS SURVIVING
NOT KNOWING THAT THE PAIN WILL ONLY GET WORSE BUT WILL EVENTUALLY GET TO THE POINT OF BEING DRIVEN IN A HURSE
THOUGHTS OF UNIQUE BEHAVIORS ONLY TO FEEL SOMETHING LIKE A CHILD BORED WITH EVERYTHING WHICH HE CALLS NOTHING
WHIPPING YOUR BACK IN THE NAME OF CHRISTIANITY WITH A BLIND FAITH FOR GOD WITH NO CERTAINTY
A SULLEN LOOK OF VULNERABILITY TO CATCH A GLIMPSE OF THE HEAVENS OPENING WIDE HOPING TO GAZE UPON AN ENTITY THAT WILL CURE US OF OUR PAIN AND SORROW WITH ANTICIPATION OF A BETTER TOMORROW
ONLY TO FIND HEADLIGHTS FROM A HELICOPTER UP ABOVE SHINING DOWN ON YOU REALIZING YOU JUST DROVE OFF THE ROAD AND HIT A TREE WITH THE CONVICTION THAT DOING SO YOU MAY FINALLY COMPREHEND A STRONG FEELING OF JUST WANTING TO BE
AH! BUT ALAS ALL YOU’VE ENDED UP WITH IS TO BE IMPAIRED AND A SENSATION OF BEING SCARED
NOT TO MENTION THE AMOUNT OF DAMAGE YOU’VE CAUSED SO LET US PRAISE OUR STUPIDITY AND GIVE AN APPLAUSE
THIS USELESS THING CALLED SELF-ABASEMENT IS NOT MUCH WORTH TO PAY TRIBUTE TO BECAUSE THE ONE’S WHO DO THIS REALLY HAVE NO CLUE!