USELESS (A POEM FROM MY COMPILATION "AN EMOTIONAL JOURNEY")

HAVE YOU EVER REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT HOW INEFFECTIVE YOU WERE?
I HAVE, SINCE YOU’VE LEFT ME I CAN’T HELP BUT TRY AND COMPARE TO HER
YOU ALWAYS SAID MY INCOMPETENCE INCONVENIENCED WHO YOU ARE
TROUBLE IS I NEVER FELT SO INADEQUATE UNTIL YOU CAME ALONG AND SAT NEXT TO ME AT THE BAR
SO WHY DID YOU BOTHER TO CREATE THIS RELATIONSHIP ONLY TO HAVE IT FOILED
IF YOU THOUGHT I WAS A WASTE OF TIME WITH TOO MUCH BAGGAGE AND WAS APPARENTLY SPOILED?
MY WORTHLESS SELF THAT I WHOLE HEARTEDLY GAVE TO THEE
MEANT NOTHING IN YOUR EYES THAT YOU COULD JUST SWAT ME LIKE A FLEA
IT’S FUTILE TO EVEN TRY TO GET YOU TO UNDERSTAND
WHEN WHAT I GET BACK IS A SLASHING REPRIMAND
WARNING! HERE COMES THE PATHETIC LITTLE ME
DESIRING ONLY FOR YOUR ATTENTION OF MY QUALITIES TO SEE
I AM OF NO USE TO YOU ANYMORE AS YOU HAVE SOLEMNLY STATED
SEEMS EVEN TOO FUTILE TO HAVE AN ADEQUATE REBUTTAL DEBATED
YES YOU SEE ME AS A PIECE OF RUBBISH AND TREAT ME AS SUCH
TOO INEPT TO FIGHT BACK BECAUSE I MUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH
OKAY SO I KNOW I’M HOPELESS AND INEFFECTIVE
BUT REALIZE THAT I WAS ONCE HELPFUL TO YOU AS SUCH SUBJECTIVE
MY BEING IS EMPTY WITH NO MORE DESIRE
JUST BARELY LIVING MERELY CRAVING TO LET GO AND RETIRE
INTENDING TO MAKE A PEACE OFFERING REALIZING THAT IT’S USELESS
HOW CAN I WITH ALL I RECOGNIZE OF YOU IS PLENTY OF ABUSES!
WASTED TIME OF USELESS CONVERSATIONS SHOULD HAVE TRUSTED MY OWN INSTINCTS AND OBSERVATIONS