A VALENCE SO OBSCURED BURIED IN THE DEPTHS THAT IS BLURRED
CONSTANTLY WITHHOLDING ANY TRUTH OUT OF FEAR OF ABUSE
CAN’T SEEM TO LET GO FOR A SECOND TO ENJOY AND LET LOOSE
COVERING UP WHAT YOU PERCEIVE AS A DARK SECRET THAT PLAYS IN YOUR MIND
TO A POINT THAT IT BECOMES A MYSTERY AND YOU ARE HOPELESSLY BLIND
INCESSANTLY DELAYING FOR OTHERS TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER
PERSISTENT IN YOUR ACTS TO NOT LET THEM IN EVEN IF IT MEANS FOREVER
AN UNSPOKEN DREAD OF ONE AND ALL TO SPEAK OUT AGAINST YOU’RE WEAKNESSES TO CALL
SCREENING OUT AHEAD OF TIME OF WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO SAY
SO OTHERS CAN’T HOLD YOU TO ANYTHING OR SO IT SEEMS ANYWAY
GOING UNDERGROUND OUT OF FEAR OF LETTING OTHERS IN
HOW DO YOU EXPECT TO SURVIVE LET ALONE GOING TO WIN?
CONCEALED WITH SO MUCH DISTRUST DENYING THAT YOU KNOW YOU SHOULD AND MUST
THE HIDEOUS BEHAVIOR OF ONE WHO IS IN DEFEAT
WILL NOT BE UNDERSTOOD BY THOSE WHO ARE SLIGHTLY MORE UPBEAT
SECRETED FEELINGS OF DESIRE TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND DUPLICATED
LACK OF KNOWLEDGE TO ACHIEVE THIS WISH; IN ITS PLACE TO BE SUFFOCATED
ONLY TO YEARN FOR THE SELF TO COMPLETELY VANISH
HAVING TO STILL DEAL WITH LIFE IN A LACK OF ASTONISH
THIS MENTAL ILLNESS OF WANTING TO GO IN HIDING
WILL ONLY CONCLUDE IN A SAD CASE THAT’S DYING
DEDUCING THIS ATROCIOUS SENSATION SUMS UP TO BASICALLY NO MOTIVATION!
..IT'S FRESH! Would love to hear you recite them...I wonder if you feel them in the same manner in which you write them, there is hurt and hope...always a most intriguing and beautiful combination...keep going! Eiko
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