Trying to express myself without sounding ridiculous
Lost in a sea of words that I can’t seem to articulate
Frustration overwhelms me with no end
Growing ever so steadily to a point of tearing down my sanity
Hands shaking from the fear of what I might discover
Eyes glassed over on the brink of a major waterfall
My mind bouncing back and forth like a ping pong
Wanting to scream but it’s too late to actually do anything
Not knowing really what I am writing about
Yearning for it to mean something that impinges the heart
A thought flashes through with such dread
That I could be nothing but a fake instead
Laughing it off to hide my insecurity
Only it’s obvious that I lack much ability
Scared to think that I may not have much depth
Total self awareness that I know is a guard I use to protect
Do they know who I really am?
Or it doesn’t matter because the fantasy is what they desire
Feeling short changed to have to suppress the true me
But out of protection I can’t allow my peers to get too close
So therefore I am only the mannequin they molded me to be!
Can you really be the 'right mold' or are your thoughts and feelings fit not to be molded? Do you need what you write to mean something' or does meaning come from the experience of writing and doing something?
ReplyDeleteDoesn't a person already know who he/she is, and is it not the 'doubt' that causes us not to know?
I think you become the best 'you' that can be,and let the world 'mold'to you...it's much more feasible to know that people looking for the real you will come along rather than trying to change to make yourself someone that through un-needed 'molding', will meet the temporary desires of the superfluous...
man, that's a lot of words for typing at 3a.m.
http://www.howtogetinspired.com/2010/06/who-are-you-really.html
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